Feeling a bit empty ...

melysion · 10-18-2009, 02:32 PM

... we scattered Benjis ashes in the garden today. I was keen to do it earlier, but Mum wasnt ready until today.

And now its done, I realise that I wasnt really ready at all. With his ashes here, it felt as if he was actually still here. Now he truely has gone.

Currently cuddling Felix on the sofa. (Toby couldnt come with me this time)

Smirkitty · 10-18-2009, 02:43 PM

It's hard, and there really are no words to comfort. I'm very sorry for your loss.

Leazie · 10-18-2009, 05:25 PM

I'm sorry Allie. Sending hugs and love to you and your Mum during this rough time.

katlover13 · 10-18-2009, 05:59 PM

It's hard to let go of them no matter how long it is. I still have Buzzy's ashes and was secretly happy when hubby didn't seem to be in a hurry to scatter them.

Benji was a very special dog and I know your memories of him will keep him with you always.

Heidi n Q · 10-18-2009, 06:59 PM

Everyone walks the paths at different paces.

DesnBaby · 10-18-2009, 10:33 PM

melysion · 10-21-2009, 01:07 PM

Thanks everyone for your kind messages.

Its a bit bizarre because for the last ten or so years of Benjis life I was living away from the parental home. So, when he died, my day-to-day life didn't really change at all. Its only when I visit my mum (about once a month) that it hits me once more that he is no longer around.

All those little places he used to be. He loved being in the garden and he loved his little beds in the living room and upstairs.

I still haven't gotten used to not carrying him upstairs to bed when I'm there.

10-18-2009, 02:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
melysion Premier Cat Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: London, England Posts: 7,940	Feeling a bit empty ... ... we scattered Benjis ashes in the garden today. I was keen to do it earlier, but Mum wasnt ready until today. And now its done, I realise that I wasnt really ready at all. With his ashes here, it felt as if he was actually still here. Now he truely has gone. Currently cuddling Felix on the sofa. (Toby couldnt come with me this time) __________________ "FIV != PTS" "SENIOR KITTIZENS ROCK! (between naps)" Allie and Ridley Toby - waiting at the rainbow bridge (2002-2011)

10-18-2009, 02:43 PM	#2 (permalink)
Smirkitty Cat Addict Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Woburn, MA Posts: 1,897	Re: Feeling a bit empty ... It's hard, and there really are no words to comfort. I'm very sorry for your loss.

10-18-2009, 05:25 PM	#3 (permalink)
Leazie Premier Cat Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: West Virginia Posts: 9,006	Re: Feeling a bit empty ... I'm sorry Allie. Sending hugs and love to you and your Mum during this rough time. __________________ Mommie to Bob, Simba, Miss Baby, Missy, Gracie and Molly Brown

10-18-2009, 05:59 PM	#4 (permalink)
katlover13 Cat Addict Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Northeast Ohio Posts: 2,835	Re: Feeling a bit empty ... It's hard to let go of them no matter how long it is. I still have Buzzy's ashes and was secretly happy when hubby didn't seem to be in a hurry to scatter them. Benji was a very special dog and I know your memories of him will keep him with you always. __________________ *Sue*

10-18-2009, 06:59 PM	#5 (permalink)
Heidi n Q Premier Cat Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Monroe, GA Posts: 17,088	Re: Feeling a bit empty ... Everyone walks the paths at different paces. __________________ Spay it forward. (neuter, too!) I have the ability of single-minded determination and focu... Hey look, a cat! =^..^=

10-18-2009, 10:33 PM	#6 (permalink)
DesnBaby Banned Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 17,874	Re: Feeling a bit empty ...

10-21-2009, 01:07 PM	#7 (permalink)
melysion Premier Cat Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: London, England Posts: 7,940	Re: Feeling a bit empty ... Thanks everyone for your kind messages. Its a bit bizarre because for the last ten or so years of Benjis life I was living away from the parental home. So, when he died, my day-to-day life didn't really change at all. Its only when I visit my mum (about once a month) that it hits me once more that he is no longer around. All those little places he used to be. He loved being in the garden and he loved his little beds in the living room and upstairs. I still haven't gotten used to not carrying him upstairs to bed when I'm there. __________________ "FIV != PTS" "SENIOR KITTIZENS ROCK! (between naps)" Allie and Ridley Toby - waiting at the rainbow bridge (2002-2011)

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