A tribute to my Samurai (RIP baby boy ♥) - Page 3

cooncatbob · 07-19-2011, 11:40 PM

I called Chiquita by Samantha pet name the other day and teared up, Chiquita is
"Little Puddin" and Samantha was " Puddin Head" I used to comb her little kitty face at night and ask her "Are you Papa's silly Little Puddin Head" and she would just purr with joy.
I sometimes think I see her out of the corner of my eye.
The worst is when I pull into the driveway look to the kitchen window and she's not there.
I move to this house shortly before she turned 5 and she always watch for me to come home from the kitchen window.
I like to think that where ever she is she's waiting to welcome me home.

KittieLover · 07-20-2011, 03:01 AM

I really feel for you, TheCatsWhiskers. I know how much he was loved by you and how much you were loved by him. My thought's and prayers are with you.

R.I.P Samurai

TheCatsWhiskers · 07-21-2011, 03:09 AM

I know we'll meet again my little fellow "mine-mine" - our bond was/is by far too strong to ever ever break ♥ xX

cooncatbob · 07-21-2011, 12:39 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheCatsWhiskers

I know we'll meet again my little fellow "mine-mine" - our bond was/is by far too strong to ever ever break ♥ xX

Just so I never forget, I have my favorite photo of Sam set as my desk top.
When I start up or shut down my computer there she is, I tell how pretty she is and how much I miss her.

TheCatsWhiskers · 07-21-2011, 12:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cooncatbob

Just so I never forget, I have my favorite photo of Sam set as my desk top.
When I start up or shut down my computer there she is, I tell how pretty she is and how much I miss her.

Snap! I have Samurai's photo as mine too!

I cant believe it was a week today... On one hand it seems longer but on the other I still expect to hear my bedroom door go bang with his little headbutt and have him bound in and up on to my bed. I miss him so very much, part of me just cant / wont accept that he's gone

TheCatsWhiskers · 08-01-2011, 12:39 PM

There hasn't been a day that's gone by when I haven't thought of my beautiful baby boy Sam. I can still see his loving little face and cocky strut so very clearly. The painful last few weeks of his life still hurts real bad to recall, I try my hardest to just remember the healthy Samurai I knew and loved all the years before he feel ill but that doesn't stop the images of my sick baby haunting me, especially late at night...

I'm so sorry mine-mine, I'm sorry for not being able to do more to save you. I'm sorry for giving up on you and not forcing the vet to operate on you - I just keep thinking that perhaps you would have been strong enough to pull through.

These if's and but's are tearing me apart.

I wonder what you would make of the rescue cat Jess and her little son Dennis that I now have living with me, I so hope that you wouldn't be jealous or hurt thinking that I had tried to replace you; that would be impossible as no one and nothing can or could ever do that, you really were one of a kind.

All I can do is hope that wherever you are my darling you forgive me and aren't angry, please understand that I loved you so very much x and was trying to do right by you.

cooncatbob · 08-01-2011, 12:51 PM

I have the same guilt and remore about Samantha, but I've lost a lot of friends and family to cancer and surgery would have made the end just that much worse.
I could not bear to see her suffer like you could not bear to see your baby boy suffer.
It's the final gift we give to them, a release from all pain even though it tears our hearts out.
I take solace in the fact that except for the very end she lead a healthy and happy life and never knew abuse or want.
When she died she died in her Papa's arms knowing that she was loved and adored.
You pass on the legacy of love when you open your heart and home to another creature in need of love, you honor his memory.

**Xanti** · 08-01-2011, 12:52 PM

As I told my parents when they had their dog pts and felt guilty about it too..it is a no win situation. His name was Sam too, by the way...

If the vet had operated , he would have been distressed and in pain and you would have beaten yourself up about that too..

Really, there is no 'right' answer, whatever you would have decided would have made you feel guilty.

Your kitty knows he was loved and he knows you did what was best..and he would say thank you if he could.

07-20-2011, 03:01 AM	#22 (permalink)
KittieLover Senior Cat Join Date: May 2011 Location: Australia Posts: 831	I really feel for you, TheCatsWhiskers. I know how much he was loved by you and how much you were loved by him. My thought's and prayers are with you. R.I.P Samurai __________________ Sarah, Owned by Black Maine Coon Siamese "Good cat owners aren't born, they are made."

07-21-2011, 03:09 AM	#23 (permalink)
TheCatsWhiskers Jr. Cat Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: London UK Posts: 81	I know we'll meet again my little fellow "mine-mine" - our bond was/is by far too strong to ever ever break ♥ xX __________________ R.I.P (my baby boy) Samurai ♥ If tears could build a stairway, and thoughts a memory lane, I'd walk right up to rainbow bridge and bring you home again xX

08-01-2011, 12:39 PM	#26 (permalink)
TheCatsWhiskers Jr. Cat Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: London UK Posts: 81	There hasn't been a day that's gone by when I haven't thought of my beautiful baby boy Sam. I can still see his loving little face and cocky strut so very clearly. The painful last few weeks of his life still hurts real bad to recall, I try my hardest to just remember the healthy Samurai I knew and loved all the years before he feel ill but that doesn't stop the images of my sick baby haunting me, especially late at night... I'm so sorry mine-mine, I'm sorry for not being able to do more to save you. I'm sorry for giving up on you and not forcing the vet to operate on you - I just keep thinking that perhaps you would have been strong enough to pull through. These if's and but's are tearing me apart. I wonder what you would make of the rescue cat Jess and her little son Dennis that I now have living with me, I so hope that you wouldn't be jealous or hurt thinking that I had tried to replace you; that would be impossible as no one and nothing can or could ever do that, you really were one of a kind. All I can do is hope that wherever you are my darling you forgive me and aren't angry, please understand that I loved you so very much x and was trying to do right by you. __________________ R.I.P (my baby boy) Samurai ♥ If tears could build a stairway, and thoughts a memory lane, I'd walk right up to rainbow bridge and bring you home again xX

07-19-2011, 11:40 PM	#21 (permalink)
cooncatbob Cat Addict Join Date: May 2011 Location: Carmichael, CA. Posts: 1,600	I called Chiquita by Samantha pet name the other day and teared up, Chiquita is "Little Puddin" and Samantha was " Puddin Head" I used to comb her little kitty face at night and ask her "Are you Papa's silly Little Puddin Head" and she would just purr with joy. I sometimes think I see her out of the corner of my eye. The worst is when I pull into the driveway look to the kitchen window and she's not there. I move to this house shortly before she turned 5 and she always watch for me to come home from the kitchen window. I like to think that where ever she is she's waiting to welcome me home.

08-01-2011, 12:51 PM	#27 (permalink)
cooncatbob Cat Addict Join Date: May 2011 Location: Carmichael, CA. Posts: 1,600	I have the same guilt and remore about Samantha, but I've lost a lot of friends and family to cancer and surgery would have made the end just that much worse. I could not bear to see her suffer like you could not bear to see your baby boy suffer. It's the final gift we give to them, a release from all pain even though it tears our hearts out. I take solace in the fact that except for the very end she lead a healthy and happy life and never knew abuse or want. When she died she died in her Papa's arms knowing that she was loved and adored. You pass on the legacy of love when you open your heart and home to another creature in need of love, you honor his memory.

08-01-2011, 12:52 PM	#28 (permalink)
Xanti Super Moderator Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Taunton, Somerset Posts: 2,386	As I told my parents when they had their dog pts and felt guilty about it too..it is a no win situation. His name was Sam too, by the way... If the vet had operated , he would have been distressed and in pain and you would have beaten yourself up about that too.. Really, there is no 'right' answer, whatever you would have decided would have made you feel guilty. Your kitty knows he was loved and he knows you did what was best..and he would say thank you if he could.

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