R.I.P Buster..

[savemykissesx]

Buster was my ferret that I had gotten from a shelter October 10th, 2009. That makes it just about 2 years since I've had him.. and I would like to think that I gave him a great home for the rest of his remaining years. The shelter wasn't sure of how old he was when I got him, but we knew he is a lot older than my other two at the time.

Needless to say, I had to make a very hard and emotional decision to put my Buster man to sleep on sunday. He was having a little bit of trouble walking, using his hind legs... sometimes he'd walk around in circles, and then other times when I'd let them all out of the cage, he'd be walking fine. It was really confusing to me. I am pretty sure though that it was something neurologically wrong with him.. due to that, and what happened on sunday.

I noticed Friday that he was basically skin and bones, and I didn't know what was going on. I tried to force feed him some pedialyte, but it wasn't seeming to work, and he wouldn't eat. I tried almost everything for him and I felt so defeated. I feel horrible that I didn't take him to the vet at that point, but I thought that maybe this was normal? Maybe it was just old age? I didn't know what to think or how to act...

Sunday I was out all day, when we got home around 6pm I automatically went right to the ferret cage to check on my old man. Unfortunately he wasn't getting any better.. so I started to talk to the boyfriend about him bringing him to the vet on Tuesday (his day off) but then 20 minutes or so passed and I heard a really terrifying scream from the cage..

when I went to check it out, it was Buster, and I am pretty sure he was having a seizure. It was the most scary thing I have ever experienced and wished I didn't have to see it. It was almost like his head was dented in on the side while he was screaming, and then his bowls went and I knew there was only one thing I could do for him, and that was to rush him to the emergency vet. clinic to have him euthanized. It literally has hit me so hard right away, emotionally crying, having a hard time sleeping, and just trying to let go. I just feel like there was maybe more that I could've done.

They will be sending me a clay paw print in the mail, and he is burried in our backyard (though we are planning on moving early next year.) I miss my old man face looking at me, and cuddling up with me. I even miss having to search for him when the playtime was over and he was passed out somewhere in the bedroom. (He was hard of hearing and never stayed up to play as long as the others.)

It is just such a hard thing to have to decide to do, and I know it was the right thing to do.. in my heart I just knew it had to be done.

I miss you, big guy.

[Valentine's Heart]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so hard to lose a pet friend. It sounds like you gave him a good home and you did the right thing by him.

[westfayetteville]

sorry for your loss also, its never easy. a friend of mine posted some thing on another site, I'm sure she would'nt mind if I shared it with you. (BeBe was her cat)

Another thing that will help is the image BeBe conveyed to my friend who’s been doing reiki on her. BeBe’s on a path with woods on either side. The path splits and there's a sort of wooded island in between. She’s moving towards the right-hand path, finding her own way forward, inevitably towards her death—represented by a meadow that opens up where the two paths rejoin. The left-hand path is where I take charge and send her down it. Either path is okay with her, since they both lead to the same place…maybe that meadow where the animals wait for you to join them before crossing the Rainbow Bridge.

.....and I'm imaging us on that path together before it divides. If she went down the right-hand path, she'd go slowly, with all the discomforts of the present. But when I set her on the left-hand path, all of her energy will be restored and she'll run like the wind out into that beautiful meadow.

[Kobster]

So sorry to hear about your loss of Buster. It must have been terrible to see him in such condition. You did the kind and loving thing in letting him go. My heart goes out to you!

[konstargirl]

So sorry to hear about Buster. R.I.P little guy!

[savemykissesx]

Thank you so much everyone for your kind words, I am still missing him incredibly.. but I am also going through a lot and a couple of hard decisions regarding my other ferrets, too. I love them all so dearly.

[Mitts & Tess]

I’m so sorry to read of your experience with Buster. He knew love for the two years he was with you. It’s hard to know how to care for our companions in their twilight years. You will be much wiser when you have to face this again with your other two ferrets.

He is now transitioned to his next life. There is no pain. There is happiness, contentment, peace. Picture the good memories with him. My heart breaks for you and Buster.