Thank you Arianwen. That really means a lot. It was the most difficult thing I've ever done, but I wanted her to know that she didn't have to be scared because I was there and I wasn't going to let anything hurt her anymore.
Thank you all. It has been a week now and while I am not feeling the shock that I was, it has turned into a deep hurt that feels like a kick in the stomach. A day hasn't gone by that I haven't thought of her or shed a tear. It almost feels like if I don't cry, I am betraying her.
Thank you all so much for your kind words. I can't believe it's almost been a month since I lost her. As long as I focus on the good times, I'm okay, but I still can't think of her last days without getting choked up.