I don't think you're a bad mommy
I believe sometimes we made mistakes..
Later on today, i was feeling like i am a bad mommy as well..
My furry baby accidently swallowed a piece of alluminium foil [even tho it's not that big, but still..
I knew that there was a piece of the foil dropped on the carpet and he was playing with it.
But i was too ignorant, thinking, "oh, it's okay, he was just playing with it".
Who would've guessed he actually ate it?
I panicked, then tried to call the vet.
He looked normal, didnt show any sign that he got sick or anything.
But just to be sure, checked with the vet.
It, for sure, teached me a lesson to be more careful next time.
He is still a baby, and he doesnt know what he is doing, and i was supposed to be cautious and aware about it.
Stuff happens, you shouldn't punish yourself because you made a mistake. Jus learn from it.
I am sure Kenji knows that you love him..
[Sorry about the long post, the same feeling happened to me too today, just thinking, i wanted to share my feelings too