Long time no type
Its been a rough few months for me ..... after suspecting I have bipolar disorder , my wheels came off before Christmas and I was finally diagnosed with Bipolar 1 ..... sheesh .. at my age its hard to deal with ...
Okay so after taking 6 weeks to get stabilised on the medication , my 20 year old sons girlfriend ( who was pregnant with twins) has her babies .. 2 days later one of the twins passed away , which was absoluty dreadful .... losing that little baby
My son of course being only 20 couldnt cope and I had to fly up to the city where they live to help out .... meeting his girlfriend Sandy was great , a lovely girl .... and we have become very close
the surviving twin Hailey is doing very well ... and is a fat and happy baby , she is a month old now
My son who I also suspected is bipolar , loses his job , and I manage to get him diagnosed and he is also bipolar .... so ....... it aint stopping.
Then our peaceful lives on the farm gets thrown into total turmoil .. now in SA we have what is known as land claims .... basically the "previous inhabitants of the particular area have life long claim on the land it doesnt seem to matter if they last lived here 400 years ago
they have rights ... so this farm is under land claims ... 25000 hectares of prime farming land will soon be given back to its "rightful" owners and my hubby will no longer have a job ... besides that .... these same people are threatening to burn the farm and all the houses on it!!!! so we are no longer safe at all.
I want to run away sometimes and hide in a dark corner
Hubs fortunately is an artisan( tradesperson) for which there is a HUGE shortage here so finding another job will be easy for him , its the disruption in our lives that has me totally frazzled. It means having to go back to the city which I dont like at all ... I will have to adjust , but its not a nice thought.
So thats basically it ..... it hasnt been fun , and im trying very hard to be positive about life ....