She wanted to call me - to tell me she wanted to fire me. Not because I was doing a poor job... not because I didn't come in on time... not because I didn't greet every customer that walked in the door... but because some of the regulars came in... and because I messed up their drinks once... and never forgave me... when they walked in and saw me... they left. So she said "because I am shy" she had to let me go.
What am I supposed to say to my next employer? Were you fired? Yes... Why? Because I was shy? What kind of stupid excuse is that?
I feel aweful. Every job I get is like this... I either get one boss that doesn't like me (out of many) and they make my life a living h*** until I leave... or the main boss despises me.
What makes me sick... is she told everyone before she told me. Everyone knew... and acted so weird when I walked into the store. "What are you doing here?" or the silent treatment.
Is that what jobs are now? Does it matter how hard you work or what you do? Is it instead... who you know? Or how much they like you? I'm starting to get a pessimistic feeling about life and jobs in general. What is wrong with me? Why do people hate me so much?
It's not like I'm trying to be unfriendly - but I don't talk much to people (and by that I mean my co-workers or my boss) - that's just how I am. It doesn't mean that I don't try to talk - or get a conversation going. I've tried so many times to ask people around how they are - their lives and other things... and after that they fell silent... so what else should I do? It also doesn't mean that I don't want to talk - or avoid it. Is that wrong? Should I try to be someone else?
I don't think any other job is going to be different than the ones I've had. I think I am the no luck queen.
My stomach is in such a hard knot right now - I don't know what to do. I guess I should try to get a job - but everyone is closed on the weekend around here... and I don't think I would do well with a waitressing or anything for that matter.