I'm going through a break up right now. He told me thursday night. Been crying ever since.
I wanted to work things out, but he would't even tell me whats wrong. Said he'd call wednesday so we can talk, but I didn't hear anything til Thursday night.
I feel like I brought it about, got mad and wrote him a note telling him all the things he does that make me feel bad( I always had to call him, he never called me, he stopped having 'relations' two months ago and he kept givning me excuses like it's too hot, I have stomach ache etc. then last friday was our 6 month anniversry and I TOLD him it was about four times, and he didn't say in a thing to me about it when the day came.) So I wrot ehim the letter.
Wasn't the outcome I had expected. I thought he'd apologize and tell me whats wrong.
I can't, eat, sleep or do anything, I even skipped work Friday. Couldn't face veryone, they had been buggung ME to break it off with him.
This was my first real realtionship and I didn't realize it would be this hard. I still love him.
Wants to be friends, but I don't think I could stand it if he ever found someone else.
We talked Thursday night and he told me he just lost interest, that we don't have anything in common etc...
But I don't feel that way at all. I loved taking part in his hobbies. I don't really have any hobbies other than horses which I know he wouldn't like so never asked him to try liking it. I mean up until he started being distant a few months ago, I saw him being the person I'd be with forever.
We're going to try being friends, but I don't know if I can do it. At least he isn't really looking for someone new he just doesn't feel like being in a relationship right now.
I don't think I could deal with seeing him with someone else.
The thing is I"ll miss his family and friends, but I'm not quite 'friends' with them yet. We hang out but I've only ever gone out with them once without him. I"m not sure if they consider me a friend or not. I guess I'll call Jami(his friends wife and the only other girl in our group) and talk to her abut it. Let her know I still would like to hang out with them.
ANd that she needs to be the one to call and invite me places. Because I know even though he said we'd be friends he won't ever call and invite me over since his friends never call they just show up at his house, but I've never felt right abut that and have alway's called.
Well, I don't think I"ll be ready to see anyone again for a LONG time. Considering my last guy was my Jr. year in HS. It took me 5 yrs to finally date again. And I didn't care about that guy nearly as much as this one. I figure I'll be ready to date again when I'm 30.
Of course in those 5 yrs he was the only person who ever asked me out. Was technically my first date, first of just about everything other than kissing. Had 'relations' once with the guy in HS, then he never spoke to me again.Heck he stopped us half way through and went and puked. That'll kinda scar a girl for life. That's why I had such a big problem when this one stopped being affectionate towards me. Makes me feel like some ugly thing no guy wants.
I guess it's to soon, he said he wanted to be friends but I called last night and he put me through to his voice mail.
Sorry I needed to rant.