I'm so sorry to hear about Broccoli, and I completely understand how hard it is to lose one. It's a stinging pain, a true heartbreak . . . I just kept thinking to myself, I so bad want this to not be true.
It's hard to have any perspective now, but trust me that you will, with time, reach a point where you remember and love Broccoli without the sting that you have now. In the meantime, remember to be proud of the fact that you gave a cat a loving home and were willing to take one for the team when he passed away. I'm always amazed at how strong we are to put ourselves in that position.
Holly and Murphy