*closes eyes to send good thoughts and healing wishes*
I understand having to make decisions based on bottom line, and I feel what you have done is already fabulous
. If he *can* recover, you have done your best to give him the opportunity to do so: antibiotics, love, care and food. If he can't, then you've *still* done a wonderful thing by taking him in and caring for him before having to help him to cross over The Rainbow Bridge.
No matter what happens, you are a *hero* in my book for trying to help this kitty.
In 2007 I had an emaciated feral collapse on my back patio. I took him to the vet and a blood test revealed a high white blood cell count. The vet cautioned that it could be either an infection or cancer. I brought him home and fed him fabulous foods, in addition to his medications, and he continued to lose weight. I think he was about 6# when I found him and after feeding him lots of good food, he continued to lose weight, down to 5.5#. This is a cat that should have weighed 12-14 pounds.
Because he was a feral/stray I could not afford to spend a lot of money on him and after more than a month of good care and great food, he continued to decline. I feel honored that he chose *me* to help him. I am proud that I was able to pamper and love him during his last weeks and show him what a great life it was to live with a family. When his follow-up vet visit showed he was continuing to decline we decided humane euth would be the best course of action. He was already a skeleton with fur and it would have been a long process to allow him to continue to decline, linger and 'die-at-home'.
The best thing I could do for him was to release him from his failing body.
This was Rusty after 4wks of care:
For comparison, this is Floofy who is the same body-frame (tall and long like Rusty
) at 2yrs old and 13#.