I'm just sitting in my recliner, on my computer, already said goodnight to Arwen, my feral girl. She used to sleep by my front door, and at times still does during the day, but usually she hides and sleeps in my neighbors shed, or under it. Well, tonight she is by my door, and I hear cat fighting. I stupidly run out the door, knowing full well, I could get caught in the middle of it. The other cat was gone, Arwen runs to me, hides behind me, as she does when she is frightened by a loud truck passing by, or whatever scares her. I ran out into the yard to shoo away the other cat, I didn't see one, but I hope Arwen finds a place to go hide out. She will avoid a fight at all costs. If another cat tries to take her food, she will step aside and let them have it. She is not a fighter, and not very big.
I feel so helpless right now. She can't come in my house. I have 3 indoor cats. I don't know her health status. She is a TNR. I am resigned to helping her as much as I can but this kills me when I feel like I can't protect her
Part of me wants to just trap her, take her in and see her health status, see if there is any way to make it work, but in my heart, I KNOW this cat cannot be an indoor cat.
The neighbor at the end of my street currently is feeding MANY stray cats, which, obviously, I love cats. One of the cats has a messed up eye and does not look healthy. She has no plans to trap any of them and have them TNR, which makes me angry. She had just a few, now they say she has 9. I'm sure it is one of her cats hassling Arwen. I'm so afraid that AC is going to come out and round up these cats, and I wonder if Arwen will be caught in the process. Arwen is ear tipped, so hopefully they won't, but lately they have been picking up those guys too, which is reallly pissing off the cat shelters that they are doing this.
I truly adore this cat. Her love for me is about the sweetest thing I have ever seen from any pet I have ever had. I realize that this is life for a feral cat and I do the best I can for her and I"ve said, if she ever gets hurt or sick I will bring her in to the vet for care, that I will not let her be sick and not help her.
She is breaking my heart tonight. It's been a half an hour since the fighting, and it's quiet. I hope she has found a safe place to hide out. My poor girl