sorry to hear you are having hard times with your baby. i am too so i know how it feels. my Simi is 19 and has been having seizures, but is otherwise perfectly healthy, and still functions like a normal cat, very talkative and lots of bathing and sleeping!
i desperately wish i could read her mind to help me help her, im sure you feel the same way with your kitty!
dont refrain from talking about your story! thats why we are all here, right?