Hello. My name is Mel. I decided to come on here to meet other cat lovers. My heart is breaking because I am about to lose the love of my life, Weiland. He is a black persian and about 12 years old. He has lung cancer and just threw a blood clot in his leg. The good vet saved him, and I was able to bring him home two days ago. But due to the clot, I had to stop his cancer meds for a time and he is suffering, I think. I just do not want to put him down. I am praying he dies naturally. Sometimes he seems fine, he is still very affectionate, and other times he is just looking so sad.
I feel so alone and I am tormented by the thought of having to make this decision. I cry all the time and I cannot be happy no matter what. I know there are people on here who understand. This is my first time in going through something like this.