I get so upset when I hear or read about a cat dying. I just wish cats could live a lot longer, like 50 years. I guess it's because my Razzle is dying with chronic renal failure. I feel it's not fair that he will die soon and not live to 23 years old like some cats. i just can't imagine my life without him. He's not the dream cat i've always wanted but i love him with all my heart. I wish he curled up in my arms at bedtime. I've always wanted him to kiss my face and put his paw on my face to show that he loves me, but that has never happened. He never greets me at the door with a meow saying he's so happy i'm home. He's never brushed away my tears. He never follows me around the house, but I know he loves me with the little things he does. He's not just a cat. He came into my life over 16 years ago and has forever wrapped his tail around my heart. I'm so afraid of losing him and don't know how I will cope without him. I know I need to enjoy everyday i have with him but I can't stop thinking I will lose him one day and how will I go on. I know this, and many people have told me, but many times i can't help stop worrying about losing the most precious cat I have ever had. His paw prints will forever be imprinted on my heart.