I'm kind of having a hard time with this....my grandmother passed away Saturday. Her funeral was today. This is the very first time someone I really know has died. I'm 21 and in college, but she lived here in town and I saw my grandparents a lot. I feel confused. I haven't cried or felt too sad, because while she was dying I spent most of my time doing what I could for my grandfather and my mom. I helped a lot and I feel kind of proud that I could help them, but I don't know how I'm doing personally. Sometimes I feel like I haven't been sad enough yet. Sometimes I feel like that's okay because I've had a long time to be prepared for it and I've already done some grieving. But sometimes I feel like I'm thinking too much and being too upset about it. After all, she was just a grandparent. Some people I know have already lost parents. I just want to feel one way or the other. If I could make up my mind that I'm really upset, or that I'm pretty much over it, I could deal with it. But I just don't know. Sorry to bring up such a depressing subject, but there seem to be a lot of people here that are college age and maybe someone has been in a similar situation.