A week ago my bf finally gave me the ok on taking in some foster kittens. I drove down to a shelter about 40 min away. We have several shelters closer but I chose this particular shelter bc they are located in a major city and is always completely overwhelmed with strays and surrenders. They had received 14 litters of bottle feeders that day. I settled on a litter of 3 two weekers when I spotted a slightly larger kitten alone in one of the crates. He was about 3 weeks old and was absolutely beautiful. He had long fluffy white fur with grey patches and a fast grey tail. I fell in love instantly and he ended up coming home with me as well. He was a problem right from the start. He wouldn't take the bottle at all so I had to feed with a syringe. He hadn't pooped since I brought him home so on wednesday I took him to the clinic at the shelter. The vet tech said she could feel hard stools and just water down his formula and try some wet food. Over the next day he was straining a lot and was starting to get a tiny bit of blood coming out of his rectum. I took him back to the clinic first thing friday morning. They gave him subq fluids and spent 2 hours giving enemas. He finally went but afterwards he was very lethargic. They told me it was alot of strain on his little body and he was just exhausted. He got up and moved around a little throughout the night and this morning so I thought he was starting to feel better. Sadly around noon I noticed he was looking really worn out and his breathing was very heavy. I picked him up and cuddled him in my lap where he shuddered once and just stopped. I quickly layed him down on the bed and he didn't appear to be breathing. I spent the next several minutes blowing into his mouth and giving tiny compressions, but he was gone. I felt like my heart broke into millions of tiny pieces. I love all of the kittens but he snagged a very special place in my heart. He went through a few names, but I finally settled on Gizmo bc my bf kept saying the kitten looked like the gremlin lol. I was really leaning towards adopting him and now I feel so empty.