I have a lot of guilt while I post this and I am not going to list excuses. I never intended to get any more animals and was going to see my 15 year old dog through to the end. I ended up taking in two cats that didn't have a home and were living on the street. I have been on this forum because I do care and have provided a home for them but my heart is not in it. In fact I am too anxious about it. I don't want indoor only cats and I am too worried when they don't come home at the time I think they should. I can't even imagine these cats being happy forced to stay indoors although I do read at the success of others in getting ferals to stay in. I know I will be moving some time in the future as my daughter is pregnant and it means a lot to me to be near her. Anyway, I am in San Diego county - what agencies do any of you know that are responsible at adopting out cats? I need to feel really comfortable that they will be taken care of and have a good home. I find myself adding up the years they can live and wondering if before they pass away I will be having to be taken care of. I don't know why I can't relax more about the whole thing but I just can't seem to. I know people who just go with the flow and if something happens, they chalk it up fate but I know that my decisions affect the outcome. Maybe it is my age and uncertainty about taking care of myself, my 96 year old mother and my 15 year old dog. The next person may just let it be and something will happen and they won't beat themselves up about it. The only opportunity I had was to give them away as barn cats and that didn't seem right to me. I hope you can tell this is hard on me and I may not even do it, but I guess I need to start somewhere.