Young, Helpless and now Free

The black kitten has died... It was expected but I had my hopes up thatd it'd survive. I can't seem to stop crying. It's been two hours since we found out. I feel like it's all my fault even though I know it wasn't. I was its mommy and I had failed it. If the tiger kitten dies, I dunno what I'll do.
I think I might keep the tiger kitten now. I really wanted to keep the black kitten because it was so 'helpless'. I seem to like the helpless things. Only 2 days and I was already attached.. Will the tears ever end?

Picture of both the black and tiger kitten